Content Warning: Alcohol Abuse/Sobriety
It’s Scorpio Season!
Can you feel the depth and intensity of Scorpio season? I know I can.
I am no stranger to working with the energy of transformation during this time of year. It is a time where the shadow comes to light, and we have access to the hidden realms within, revealing deeper layers of awareness and understanding.
When we willingly work with this energy, we can unearth so many jewels about ourselves, and begin to live our lives from a place of deep connection and love.
Why Scorpio Season is Important to Me
There are two very important dates for me during this time of year. One is exactly one week from today, and that being my birthday! I love my birthday and I love being a Scorpio!
The other is today, my day of sobriety. It is my day of rebirth and reclaiming my life as mine. It is the day that I chose to truly open up to learning to love and live my life.
Today, I am honoring 8 years of being free from alcohol. Something that had controlled my life since a very young age.
I grew up in an environment where excessive alcohol consumption was normalized. Alcohol was at the center of everything from social gatherings to professional work events and in private home settings. It was everywhere around me, and over time it easily transitioned from a way to be social and fun, and into a way to escape the emotional and mental pain I was in.
I knew I had a problem long before I accepted help and support. Being the private and independent person that I am, I wanted to do it alone. I actually stopped drinking twice on my own. However, I didn’t heal the core issues that led to me abusing alcohol in the first place.
I continued to self-isolate and disconnect from the world around me, even though what I truly needed and desired, was more connection and intimacy. This behavior led me into a very dark place where I eventually had to make a choice between, quite literally, losing everything or choosing to live.
Choosing to Live
On Nov 1st, eight years ago, I chose to live. I agreed to receive help from others and I committed to doing the deep inner work that is necessary for healing to begin. It is a journey that has many layers to it and continues to unfold, as I continue to grow and evolve.
As I sit here today in solitude and self-reflection, it has become crystal clear to me that this journey is all about mending the relationship to Self. To remembering that the love we need and so desperately seek, is already within us.
It sounds so simple and yet for many of us, it seems so complex.
For me, this journey has required a tremendous amount of patience and dedication to:
- Remembering the essence of who I truly am
- Unlearning a lifetime of conditioning, patterns and behaviors
- Learning how to fully trust that I know what’s best for me
- Knowing that I am deserving and worthy of love
- Developing my relationship to Self and understanding her needs
- Being present with and willing to experience my full range of emotions
- Letting go of the notion that I need to be perfect in order to be accepted
We are all perfectly and uniquely designed as we are, and the key is to remember this. To remember our Divine essence and connect with the Love within. To heal those areas that we have somehow come to believe are broken and less worthy of love and connection.
We are all worthy and deserving of love and connection.
So as I sign off and go about my day, I want to thank you for being here, and being a witness to my journey.
I am deeply blessed and honored to have you here, and I pray that you are well, staying healthy and in a good place.
Blessings and hugs,
Tania
P.S. In honor of my 8 year sobriety anniversary, I have extended the Special Holiday Rate for An Evening of Healing! Visit the link to learn more and register.