I am very comfortable sitting in the background, not being seen. And I know that I was born for more than that. That I am being asked to step up and be comfortable (confident) with being seen. To step confidently and fully into my power and to help others by leading the way.
I know that I am here to be a guide, a mentor and teacher for others, based on the experiences that I have been through.
Today, I want to do that by sharing with you what I have been personally experiencing. This is a deeply personal share.
Please note, that if you are in a sensitive or emotional state yourself, what I am sharing could be triggering (mental health/negative self-talk/self-criticism) and you may want to save this to read, for a time where you feel is better suited for you.
It is also going to be a long share, so wait until you have time to take it all in.
By sharing this, I hope that it supports you wherever you are in your journey, and that you know, that you are not alone.
So here we go…
Yesterday was an exhausting day and I wasn’t sure how I would get through it. I had a triggering event that my logical mind considered minor and insignificant.
My emotional body, on the other hand, felt like it was the end of the world. I experienced a flood of emotions that overwhelmed me. To my logical mind, it was confusing, frustrating and downright scary.
I could not control the tears and the overwhelming feelings that came over me. So many different thoughts came and went…
The truth is…I Am Strong! I Am Resilient!
I have been through a lot in my lifetime. I have been to some of the darkest places in life and risen up from the ashes, even stronger than before. So what I experienced, from a logical and mental perspective was minuscule, compared to what I have been through.
And here’s the thing…What happened for me, no matter how small or insignificant it may seem, it triggered the shadow within me. A flood gate of feelings and emotions came rising to the surface to be released. Along with that I released layers of insecurity, doubt, fear, unworthiness, limiting beliefs, and so much more.
What I have learned is that when this happens, I need to allow it. I need to surrender to it. I just need to feel it and let it out. It is one the hardest lessons I have had to learn in my lifetime.
One of the hardest!
And even though I know the Truth of who I am…
I am also a highly sensitive, empathic and emotional person who has been through a lifetime of painful experiences and I feel things quite deeply. Experiences that were once ignored, repressed, numbed and escaped from.
And even though I have spent many years working with, healing from and integrating these experiences, there are times that remnants of those stored memories reveal themselves. A reminder that there is another layer for me to release, in order to reveal more of my light within. To free up the bound up energy from those experiences. To make the unconscious conscious.
A Powerful Time for Transformation
All this to say, we are in a deeply powerful time this week, where the energy of today’s full moon is available to help support us. Pluto, the planet of transformation, is challenging us to transform, to grow and evolve.
If you are feeling the potency of this energy and it is bringing up some intense feelings and emotions for you, know that you are not alone.
The power of Pluto is empowering us into a new paradigm of conscious leadership. Asking us to rise up with confidence and to step fully into our personal power. To learn how to be in right relationship with ourselves first, then with the world around us.
This full moon in Aries is shining a light on the areas where we need to let go of the sticky bits that hold us back, and showing where we need to grow. And Pluto is here to help facilitate that transformation, so that when the dust settles, we can take sacred action (Mars) towards being the heart-centered leaders, we are meant to be.
Whatever phase of this process you are in, please honor it.
For those of you navigating this week with grace and effortless ease, thank you for shining your light and helping to lead the way for others.
As you go about your day and week ahead, know that I am sending all of you so much love and light. And if you desire to be seen and heard, simply send me an email (tania@risinglotuswings.com) and share with me what you are going through. I would be honored to hold a safe space for you to express yourself.
And if you need some additional support, I created a 20-minute guided meditation and energy healing, that is available to you on a donation basis. Click this link to access it: Energy Healing Activation
Blessings and Hugs,
Tania
P.S. I am offering a group energy healing event on November 14th. Special Holiday Pricing is available through Oct 31st. Click to learn more and register: An Evening of Healing with Tania da Costa