To say it hasn’t been an easy road is an understatement. Nonetheless, I wouldn’t change it for anything. This is my journey, and every single challenge is an opportunity for me to grow and experience life in a new, more expanded way, with deeper awareness, understanding and consciousness.
11:11 am is when I completed the above paragraph! Love it!! Thank you, angels and guides for that message!
I am an emotionally sensitive and intuitive soul. Feeling everything within and around me is one of my spiritual gifts, but I didn’t always see it that way.
I grew up being told I was too sensitive and emotional. I was left feeling like something was wrong with me, that I was broken and needed to be fixed. I wasn’t like everyone else, or at least that was my perception and how I felt, like an outsider wandering through life trying to figure out where I belong.
At the same time, people would seek me out, telling me their deepest, darkest secrets and looking for guidance, direction and a solution to their situation. It wasn’t just my peers but my elders as well. I didn’t understand it initially. Why were all of these people turning to me for help?
Eventually, I realized that I have this innate ability to ask probing questions in a way that is non-invasive, while guiding people to their own solutions. This rang true in my personal life, as well as in my career. I was the go-to person for figuring a way through challenging times, no matter how complex.
While this is an amazing gift to have, it often put me in compromising situations. Boundaries were crossed in my personal life, and I overworked in my professional life (the go-to gal gets all the work, when she doesn’t know how to say NO!). Being overly responsible while people-pleasing, can definitely have its draw backs.
I became completely cut off from my own needs, ignoring my intuition, and making poor decisions that harmed my health and emotional well-being. The pain was often too much for me to bear. I hid away from the world and turned to unhealthy ways of numbing out. It became a vicious and painful cycle that I wasn’t sure I could rise above. Yet, I knew there had to be a better way.
With support from loved ones, I began to reclaim and heal lost aspects of myself.
I learned new ways of caring for my body through yoga, meditation and eating healthy wholesome food.
Through astrology, I awakened to a deeper understanding of who I am, my spiritual gifts and the life lessons I am here to learn.
I’ve spent time in sister circles exploring the depths of the underworld, facing my shadows and learning how to support and be fully supported in sacred space.
I re-membered the importance of deep, intimate connection in community with others.
Life was calling me out when I was not living authentically aligned to my true essence. Once I started owning this, everything started to shift for me. Life began to flow with less effort and more ease. I began to understand that my pain wasn’t out to hurt me. It was an indicator, to help me know when something was out of alignment, and gently guide me back to my center.
With this newfound awareness, I have been able to look upon my experiences with an observer’s mindset, knowing that everything is playing out to wake me up to a better version of myself, allowing me to live my best life right now in the present moment.